Starting Fresh....again

Originally posted January 8th, 2008

Starting Fresh....again
Current mood: optimistic
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

It has occurred to me that I may have to take a step back from everything that has been going on in my life of late. You've heard the phrase, "Don't let life pass you by" right? Well, if you haven't, leave your room, go outside and meet society. After that, come back and read the rest of this.

For the rest of you, hang with me for a few. I had this thought a couple of days ago when I seemed to be utterly frustrated with everything and anything, no matter how big or small the problem was, regardless of whether I had control over the outcome or not along with tasks that were much simpler than I made them out to be on this particular day. Anyway, the point of this blathering is this: we all seem to get caught up in the rat race that is the everyday, at least I know I do. I have almost felt my life start to trickle through my fingers like sand filtering to the bottom half of an hourglass. Time seems to just evaporate in a day before I can even get even minor things done.

I now have a house which will seemingly be under construction until my future kids are no longer kids and my dog and cat have passed on into doggy and kitty heaven. My family (meaning my old immediate family, not the one I've started for myself) is not doing well...health wise that is. My mother and father are both ill and while I wish I could spend more time with them, life just seems to get in the way. No matter how hard I try to make time...the days grow shorter or so it seems.

I realize as we become adults, enter into new relationships and start families of our own, it's obvious to expect to have less time with your parents and siblings. It just doesn't seem fair. My father is someone that I can honestly say I never felt I got to spend enough time with. He worked really hard to just keep us afloat when I was a kid as did my mother who got a part-time job when I was younger. Looking back, I appreciate everything they did to keep our family together.

When I was younger, as most kids do, I concentrated on having fun with my friends, playing sports, my schoolwork (for the most part) and even bummin' around the house with either video games or the TV. We don't always take advantage of the bond we have with our parents. and you only get one set.

What I'm trying to say is that now that they're not in the best of health, I wish I could have spent more time with them. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I still can't...but so much time has been lost and as I sit here and type out the rest of this blog, I can't help but wonder what could have been.

Now I'm going to hit you with a 180.

Remember in the beginning of this entry, I mentioned that I have to take a step back. Well, tomorrow, I will do my damn best to do that..to work on becoming better at managing time...to stop getting frustrated with the little things and look at the big picture more vividly. This is hopefully a day where I can look back and see where things began to ascend and my goals in life became more clear. Thank you all for reading my blog (if you haven't fallen asleep already). Hopefully the next entry will include some anger or hostility towards something going on in this crazy world of ours. And if it doesn't, give me suggestions about things that piss you off and maybe I can shed my own perspective on it. That's enough out of me for tonight.

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